Life after ..

29th November 2020

Children grow up dreaming, building up skills, exploring, planning,
essentially..
living.

Me, or my peers perhaps,
wishing the pain will stop,
dreaming and planning of just the freedom,
meanwhile escaping my reality,
just to stop the pain.


Now, I dream, plan, I learn, relearn, review
for the life after,
the real life after.

26th November 2020

Overcoming abuse … has been immensely hard. I got out from my family but instead of receiving assistances, I slumped by kicks from others… some are (were mainly) due to my family’s large influences

I am defeating them one by one… Mainly because I have learned the equilibrium, gotten a voice and a credibility

Many delights from kicking just another rich person, just because they’re rich

Many delights from kicking just another person, just because they finally can instead of being kicked around

I finally learn, believe, and trust myself

All these drama, subsequent turmoil, made me learned, believed and trusted in me when others didn’t

I know what my capabilities are and my weaknesses are

I learn about the equilibrium and how things work, in my eyes

I learn these people who kick me around, are being kicked around

I learn I gotta help myself, won’t help others unless they wish, genuinely wish, to turn things around – lead horse to the water, teach a man how to fish..

15 February 2021

Read new books, The Disciplined Trader (Mark Douglas). It touched on abused, damaged people.

What differentiates us from others is the self belief that we deserve it.

Read another one Carol Dweck on Mindset.

It touched on the obsessiveness, the pursuit, the workings, the character to achieve, and to maintain.

Ours is obsessiveness to free, then lost.

The shifts = the self belief, and the obsessiveness- works – built later as characters to maintain.

Another chat with traders episode (can’t remember the person) mentioned, unless you’re damaged, this psychology self belief is unnecessary but rather the plan – real workable plan – is needed.

So, action plan:

1. Self belief
2. Stay positive
3. Work efficiently and effectively (attain the goal) on trade plan and execution – nail down those trades profitably and safely!

Sunday 6 March 2021

Another thing (from talkspace) that differentiates us from the healthy ones:

1. Communication
2. Conflict negotiation
3. Building authentic relationships
4. Healthy boundaries
5. Influencing skills
6. Networking skills